It makes me mad at myself, that I can't keep from crying sometimes. I'm such a wuss.
Ditto.. though this time I think I did pretty good as far as not crying goes. However, there's a price to pay.. I'm at the verge of tears now. It'll be quite emotionally painful when my parents get home tonight (they're off at a birthday party somewhere).
I've always had the aim to be 'strong' (well, since I was about 7 or 8, anyway). Guess it isn't going to work out quite the way I want it to. I didn't know Markus well, and still his passing affected me a great deal. If one of my closer friends dies (especially prematurely), I'll be.. hell, I don't have the words. So, you take care of yourself at all times, k?
Anyway, I'm rambling now. Gotta find something to do and quick.
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Date: 2001-06-09 06:53 pm (UTC)Ditto.. though this time I think I did pretty good as far as not crying goes. However, there's a price to pay.. I'm at the verge of tears now. It'll be quite emotionally painful when my parents get home tonight (they're off at a birthday party somewhere).
I've always had the aim to be 'strong' (well, since I was about 7 or 8, anyway). Guess it isn't going to work out quite the way I want it to. I didn't know Markus well, and still his passing affected me a great deal. If one of my closer friends dies (especially prematurely), I'll be.. hell, I don't have the words. So, you take care of yourself at all times, k?
Anyway, I'm rambling now. Gotta find something to do and quick.