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Today feels worse than yesterday. I was surprised by one of my group members noting that I didn't wear my ring yesterday. She asked if I was okay today.

That actually is a really nice thing - that she noticed and cared enough to ask. (If you're reading this, thanks.)

And to all the rest of you, every single one of you who has offered your support, thank you. You all know who you are and I appreciate you all right now, more than you may ever realize.

I'm still sad, of course. I guess that's only to be expected. Time heals all, that's what they say, and I expect it will. I just don't like waiting. I'm finding that my motivation is iffy, and I'm really tired. I took a nap yesteray, for a goo hour and a half, and I still was in bed by 10. And did not want to get up when the alarm went off so I could get to school for that 9am meeting. I had no weekend this weekend. I guess that's both good and bad.

I think I'll probably be sad for quite a while, though I'm finding that spurts of silliness are showing up again. I think I'd lost the silliness in amongst the really tight feeling that was living in my chest for the past months while we were fighting without fighting. I'm sad now, yes, but that tight feeling is gone.

I guess in the end that kind of says a lot, doesn't it?